I Wasn't Born Gay & Didn't Choose ItApril 7, 2012
Steve Abrams, 51, understands what caused his homosexuality and resents that society and gay activists lied to him. Society has descended to the point where the State is actually foisting a developmental disorder on its citizens.
"As an adult and after great pain (I am HIV positive) I realize everything that I thought I was and was told I was is a enormous lie....[Homosexuality] is not a choice. It is a compulsion brought on by an arrested development. It then becomes an addiction like an alcoholic or drug user."by Steve Abrams
I suppose you could say that I am a recovering homosexual. I'm not fully recovered, but I don't think calling myself a homosexual would be correct.
Perhaps a better description for me is someone with homosexual tendencies. You see, I don't believe anyone is born gay and I say this with great pain because my journey or life has not been a happy one.
A lot of people who believe they were born this way say they are happy with it and maybe they are but that doesn't make it right. A lot of people are happy with their condition but I am not.
Even while living as a gay man in the gay community, I always felt uneasy about it but couldn't express it to other gay people as I would be accused of being a traitor or giving into the Christian mindset.
But my story has to be told because I believe other people with homosexual tendencies are also not happy with it, and also cannot express what they feel. I think we are in the minority though. Here is my story in brief:
As a young kid I was pretty bright and innocent but I was also weak. I had no strong father figure or role model to identify with, so I identified with the strongest influence in my life, my mother and various women.
I took on their identity and lost my male identity. I believe there is such a thing as a male spiritual identity, not in a macho or pejorative sense.
When I took on the identity of a woman I became like them and lost touch with my own identity. Consequently, my path to God was disrupted. I was not sexually abused as a child so I don't think that was the reason I became this way, though I think some children are and they may become a homosexual. This depends, I believe on the child itself.
My father died when I was 5 years old. My mother who had anger and mistrust towards men due to her own upbringing projected these feeling onto a weak child who then identified with his mother's feeling and rejected the masculine or male identity within.
I believe this the root cause of homosexuality. There are other causes, but this is the main one. As I got older, around 10 or 11 years old, I began to look at men in a sexual way.
This of course disturbed me, but I didn't understand what had happened to me. It caused confusion and conflict which I have felt ever since. Now I understand it.
As an adult and after great pain (I am HIV positive) I realize everything that I thought I was and was told I was is a enormous lie.
I have read with great interest on various sites about the Illuminati. It makes sense that wicked people with power and money want to control everyone. The best way to do this is by destroying the family, particularly the relationship between children and their fathers.
Society in general is accepting the propaganda & brainwashing. Even Conservatives and Christians do not understand entirely what is going on.
Everyone is lost. But strangely, Conservatives and Christians seem to be more lost because they should know better but they don't.
Many Christians know homosexuality is wrong but they don't understand the reasons why.
They usually say things like "It's a choice!" and I can speak from experience. It is not a choice. It is a compulsion brought on by an arrested development. It then becomes an addiction like an alcoholic or drug user.
At present I am in a Civil Partnership with a man so that has been a problem for me as my thinking and view of the world has changed. This was only done for financial reasons anyway and we live like brothers really, I mean no physical relationship. He accepts this.
Strangely he does agree with me on certain things like marriage is for heterosexual couples and that children raised by a man and woman have a better start in life. He also agrees that there is too much political correctness and that freedom of speech is important whatever their opinion, so maybe there is hope for him as well.
I am now a 51 year old man who has wasted his life with periods of great torment and feeling lost in a world gone mad. But waking up to the truth is better late than never!
It disturbs me to see how society has been brainwashed to accept the homosexual agenda. I also think we, as a society. are to blame for giving up our principles and accepting it. It's now time for society to wake up!!
I don't know if there is hope for me to recover and lead the life God meant for me but I feel this article is a good first step.